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acting

a massive erection


golden globes, sag awards, oscars… it will never end. if celebrities stop publicly congratulating each other, then the earth wins.

now let’s take a solemn moment to remember some of the stars of showbiz who sadly ARE STILL WITH US.

… and the award for special effects goes to the team behind Stephen Harper’s smile.


talk qwerty to me

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welcome! i have found another way to waste time. huzzah!

now i’m the most wordpressiest wordpresser who ever wordpressed.

i use wordpress at work all day long, so there are many features i’m already acquainted with, but for the most part, i’m confused by it. Blogger is more user-friendly….in that, it’s idiot-proof. works well for a nOOb like me.

i will keep my old blogger up, so that people who have outdated links will find their way here. also, even though i imported all of my archives to wordpress, the import has caused them to double up (raymi has the same issue with her archives), so it’s a bit messy, with wonky formatting.

i used to redesign my blog once a year, but my previous purple design has been up since 2008. so i was overdue for a change. i have pretty much all of my old features up here. if you’re looking for the blogroll, it’s located in the links tab up above. my bio, my writing portfolio, my media coverage, it’s all pretty much here….just needs a bit of a clean up.

i don’t like the photo uploader wordpress has. i can upload several photos at once, no problem, BUT for whatever reason, i can only embed them in the post ONE AT A TIME. zomg pain in the ass, way to kibosh my wordpress-buzz.

so until someone tells me how to get around that, i’m going to continue to upload photos to picasa and just embed the links here.

thoughts, comments, and tips for improvement are all very welcome, as everything you see on this site at present was designed solely by me, and i barely know what i’m doing.

also, i’ve activated my domain email address -> christine@christineestima.com

dunno why i never activated it before, it came with the domain i bought.

prince wills and kate were hanging around “queen” and spadina (how apropos).

back off bitch, he’s mine.

what a similar photo. reg can be my kate middleton.

this was taken at Foursquare Day festivities . . . some sweet gifts were handed out, one being a hot red protective holder for my blackberry, it was pretty sweet, seeing as how i need one and didn’t even hafta pay for it. then later, i won a gift certificate to the sewing studio, which i’d never heard of before, but hey, i have some skirts that need hemming, might be fun to try it out. i’m holding up my winnings above with zach, reg, tony, sacha, john, and lauren‘s boyfriend whats-his-name.

 

oh good gawd. when horses are this lame, they shoot ‘em.

i’m a chris,  he’s a chris . . . it’s chris squared.

brennan is the king of cool

i was trynna pull a geordie laforge here, i don’t think it quite worked

like glamour shots

was interviewed about my foursquare activities for a yet-to-be-seen vid. i look like a snobby venomous cunt in this shot, but trust me, i was adorable in the video.

i voted today at an advance polling station. since today is a holiday, i knew i’d have the time. may 2nd is a work day and i’ll probably be too whipped to make it out to the polling station. i arrived at the voting booth located in a catholic school, only to realize i wasn’t wearing a bra.

see! voting is sexy.

most torontonians are hearing about bullet for adolf now, a new play written and directed by woody harrelson that he’s premiering exclusively here, and not at some big monster theatre either, but at unassuming hart house. i knew about it way back in january when they announced that they were only casting non-union non-equity actors. i figured i might as well submit, didn’t get asked in for an audition, but considering the way i look and what they were looking for, i kinda understand why.

it’s produced by a couple friends of mine, and the entire cast is on my facebook. in addition, i attended this is our youth a bajillion years ago when woody harrelson directed it at canstage. i knew he was a great director, but i didn’t know what his writing skills were like….all of this compounded in my absolute NEED to see this play.

i bought my ticket well over a month ago, way before all these chumps now clamouring for tickets. i paid full price, and of course now, all the discounts for arts workers (me), tweeple (me), facebook friends (me) are coming out. pfft. whatever. i’m over it. booking so far in advance scored a wicked seat. row A seat 13..AKA FRONT ROW CENTRE. lots of leg room, no one’s head in my way, unobstructed view, felt like i was in the action.

i put a stupid little copyright on these photos, just in case anyone felt like stealing. anyway, the play was really funny! i was surprised, it was really well written, go harrelson. although it’s not the greatest piece of comedic theatre i’ve ever seen, i was humbly impressed, and i was actually expecting the worst. i think what made this play was the performances. specifically, i was blown away by david coomber as “clint” and billy petrovski as “dago czech.” brandon coffey was also note-perfect as woody’s alter ego “zack.” but specifically david coomber was a talent that i was not expecting. he was absolutely flawless, impeccable comic timing, acting chops like i’ve never seen. mark my words people, that dude is going places.

during intermission, an equity actress made a flippant remark about non-union talent that was so typical of the industry. she said that essentially she was shocked non-union actors were so good. stupid thing to say. you can’t measure talent like that. besides, paris hilton is a union actress .  . . remember that next time, will ya, when ya wanna shoot your mouth off.

the play started with woody harrelson popping up over the speaker and telling us to turn off our cells. cute. and away we go. the play weaves theatre with film sequences and 1980s nostalgia. it’s essentially a retelling (with bits embellished here and there) of woody’s time in texas working construction, the friends he made, the racial binds that gripped the time, and a really cool old german guy with a gun.

some of the best lines were about child molestation (‘sexy kids’) and about abstract art (“it’s someone’s lack of imagination asking you to apply your own.”)

it’s about love, it’s about life lessons, it’s about friendship, and it’s just a hella-funny story.

there was a talkback after the show, where woody and the cast answered questions from the audience. here woody is saying “thanks fer comin’, tell yurr friends!” in his thick southern drawl. woody loves toronto, he’s here all the fricken time, so i don’t think torontonians are particularly starstruck by the sight of him anymore. he does yoga shows here, he does vegan events, pot events, and like i said before, plays. toronto is the kind of place where celebs come because they don’t really get hassled here. we’re too polite to try to chat up a movie god. either that, or we just don’t care.

anyway, you should go see this play!

there were lots of celebs and media and notables in the industry the night i went, so surely it will be like that all through the run.

layne’s in town for a month. we’ve managed to hang out twice so far, and it’s always like we pick up where we left off. we try to stay in pretty constant contact over email anyway, so it’s easy to always launch right back into things. but it’s hard having a best friend live on the other side of the country. hell, i moved to london, then he moved to the land that time forgot (aka sasquatchenon aka saskatchewan). long distance friendships take effort, and we do our best. last night we had dinner at queen mother, then walked over to canstage to see the cosmonauts last message to the woman he once loved in the former soviet union (fanks ashley for tickets!)

that title is asking a lot from an audience, i think.

anyway, some of the cast members are my friends, so i was excited to see it. layne had sat in on the auditions last year and had read with the actors, so he sorta knew what the play was about.

it was . . . interesting.

how to sugar coat this?

it touched on some interesting notions of longing and technology and relationships . . . at least, i think.

sigh. it was bad. it was just bad. the first act was like watching paint dry, the second act picked up a bit in steam, but it was terribly flat like gwyneth paltrow’s singing voice.

i mean, raoul was great, but raoul’s always great. he’s an actor you can bank on. it was just surprising, seeing as how canstage’s season this year has been STELLAR. from fernando krapp, to the andersen project, to studies in motion, to the middle place, i have been consistently impressed with matthew jocelyn‘s choices.

now, not so much.

i hate saying this cuz i’m always encouraging people to see more theatre. but i suppose in order to know what good theatre is, you have to see a lot of bad theatre.


this was written on the wall at work. it accurately describes the content that i’m writing, the audience who reads it, and basically, myself. totally femmebitious fembot….i’m eFEMMEral (see what i did there?)

i’m so femmebitious that i’m the last one to leave the office every night. once i locked up at 9:30pm. i’ve only been there two weeks, but i’m really busting my hump, i want to learn everything, and i feel like my perfectionism is holding me back. i need to write more content in a day, but i keep lingering over phrases and words and sentence structure, i can’t just let things go.

the office already presented me with my business cards, which was pretty nifty. i’ve been to a couple events already, representing the publication, handing out my card, networking, trying to find story ideas. everyone so far has commented how cool my card is. #win.

speaking of work, i was sent by them this week to get a reiki treatment, and then write about it. and write i did.  my editors told me they thought it was a great article, but i think i came across a tad bitchy.

either way, it’s a funny piece about reiki and how, even though i’m all about alternative therapies, this was just a hill of beans.

read it and enjoy!

first wordpress blogpost done….only took me 12 hours.

hashtag fail.


i’m moving to new york cause i got problems with my sleep

yes i CAN wiggle my ears! suck it, haterrrrzzzz!

more of my articles have gone live up on BlissTree. I’ve been writing my fingers off, and it’s kinda great to feel carpal tunnel whilst simultaneously delivering so much content on a daily basis, gets me motivated to do so much more writing. i have so many ideas! i’m oh so hire-able! this article I wrote called Eat Pray Burn was a lot of fun actually, it’s about how wealthy white women are more prone to melanoma, according to a new study!


this article was also rather fun because i was scoffing at all these news studies that essentially tell people good news about their bad habits. in Scare Tactics i poke fun at an article that says old people will die if they try to workout or have sex!

this article i wrote on Potassium Iodide is more of a news-y article, documenting the recent radiation scare from Japan and how Canadians are buying up all the Potassium Iodide pills from the shops out west

i also wrote a really cool essay about last week when i was sick and a Drug-Free Experiment i did….basically, instead of relying on over-the-counter cold meds to get through the cold, i took nothing but natural supplements, and had some interesting results. read on, pilgrims.

 i leave for New York Cittttt-Aaaaay on sunday, i’ll be staying at the Coward Johnson’s (aka friend’s couches) and i’m so superfunhappyballs about it that i’m bursting with fruit flavour (taste the flavour).  i’ve done almost next to no planning for it either. all i know is i have a ticket to see The Daily Show with Jon Stewart one day, a few off-off-off-broadway shows i kinda wanna see another day, and some graffiti-artist-street-art-areas i deffo wanna scope out for a scoop…

….other than that, i am at liberty.

 i am going to write and wander and be a flanneur and be the most anonymous ghost in the city where everyone walks and everyone talks.
astoria, brooklyn, and williamsburg, you are about to get the Estima-Bump.
or as nus likes to call it, “Incestima’d.”

that being said, i dunno if i’ll have the time to blog before i leave.
so this friday, i want you all to show up at 7pm at the Tarragon Theatre to see me in a musical! it’s part of the paprika festival, it’s called Alligator Tears, and i play the town gossip (how apropos). I sing A LOT with a few solos (kill me now), and tickets are only $10.

 all the info you’ll need is here 

 photo by rob kempson, during rehearsal for Alligator Tears, you can see my un-make-up’d mug in the background
also, i’m not gonna talk too much about this because i don’t want to jinx it, but last week i was telling a friend about a big audition i heard about that’s happening this saturday in toronto. now i’m not an actor by trade (although all evidence to contrary, lately), but i do enjoy being in a play or musical every now and then. i do about one a year (and believe me, that’s plenty). anyway, it struck me as i was trying to encourage my friend to go the audition (he refused), that i should be saying this to myself.  i thought, “why don’t i go? i’ve got stuff prepared… might as well give it a go. will brush up on my audition-skills. have a giggle.”
considering this big audition is probably gonna cause huge line-ups and half of toronto’s hopefuls will be there, i am under no delusions that i have shot in hell, especially since i’m leaving for NEW YORK CITTTT-AAAYYY the next day, but hey, even gretzsky said “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.” so yes,  i’ll be there early in the morning, freezing my vocal chords in the unseasonable march-sadness weather, but imma be there nonetheless.
wish me luck! (don’t say macbeth)

RIP 





your heroine went to three amazing press screenings last week for upcoming films. these are serious givin’r movies, mark my words. i was really impressed, because lately the only things i’ve been invited to are bullshit hollywood wank-fests.

the first was west is west, which is the long-awaited sequel to brit classic east is east.

then there was the LUMINOUS certified copy, which earned juliette binoche (love her) a best actress award at Cannes

finally it was family-friendly heartwarming drama win win starring montreal-hard-on-boy paul giamatti

you will have a hard time finding flaws with these three vastly differing but immensely rich films. go see them when they open. YOU’RE WELCOME.
also, another thing imma remain tight-lipped about (but am very optimistic about my chances) is an opportunity that has just arisen for me to stay in the south of france this upcoming fall at a chateau and blog for them with some funding. if i can organize inexpensive enough travel there (and secure the grant-attached writing gig i’m applying for in conjunction with this opportunity), this could really be something.
wish me luck! (don’t say tartuffe)
et c’est parti. 
on y va à new york 
à la prochaine, toronto!

>i’m moving to new york cause i got problems with my sleep

>

yes i CAN wiggle my ears! suck it, haterrrrzzzz!

more of my articles have gone live up on BlissTree. I’ve been writing my fingers off, and it’s kinda great to feel carpal tunnel whilst simultaneously delivering so much content on a daily basis, gets me motivated to do so much more writing. i have so many ideas! i’m oh so hire-able! this article I wrote called Eat Pray Burn was a lot of fun actually, it’s about how wealthy white women are more prone to melanoma, according to a new study!


this article was also rather fun because i was scoffing at all these news studies that essentially tell people good news about their bad habits. in Scare Tactics i poke fun at an article that says old people will die if they try to workout or have sex!

this article i wrote on Potassium Iodide is more of a news-y article, documenting the recent radiation scare from Japan and how Canadians are buying up all the Potassium Iodide pills from the shops out west

i also wrote a really cool essay about last week when i was sick and a Drug-Free Experiment i did….basically, instead of relying on over-the-counter cold meds to get through the cold, i took nothing but natural supplements, and had some interesting results. read on, pilgrims.

 i leave for New York Cittttt-Aaaaay on sunday, i’ll be staying at the Coward Johnson’s (aka friend’s couches) and i’m so superfunhappyballs about it that i’m bursting with fruit flavour (taste the flavour).  i’ve done almost next to no planning for it either. all i know is i have a ticket to see The Daily Show with Jon Stewart one day, a few off-off-off-broadway shows i kinda wanna see another day, and some graffiti-artist-street-art-areas i deffo wanna scope out for a scoop…

….other than that, i am at liberty.

 i am going to write and wander and be a flanneur and be the most anonymous ghost in the city where everyone walks and everyone talks.
astoria, brooklyn, and williamsburg, you are about to get the Estima-Bump.
or as nus likes to call it, “Incestima’d.”

that being said, i dunno if i’ll have the time to blog before i leave.
so this friday, i want you all to show up at 7pm at the Tarragon Theatre to see me in a musical! it’s part of the paprika festival, it’s called Alligator Tears, and i play the town gossip (how apropos). I sing A LOT with a few solos (kill me now), and tickets are only $10.

 all the info you’ll need is here 

 photo by rob kempson, during rehearsal for Alligator Tears, you can see my un-make-up’d mug in the background
also, i’m not gonna talk too much about this because i don’t want to jinx it, but last week i was telling a friend about a big audition i heard about that’s happening this saturday in toronto. now i’m not an actor by trade (although all evidence to contrary, lately), but i do enjoy being in a play or musical every now and then. i do about one a year (and believe me, that’s plenty). anyway, it struck me as i was trying to encourage my friend to go the audition (he refused), that i should be saying this to myself.  i thought, “why don’t i go? i’ve got stuff prepared… might as well give it a go. will brush up on my audition-skills. have a giggle.”
considering this big audition is probably gonna cause huge line-ups and half of toronto’s hopefuls will be there, i am under no delusions that i have shot in hell, especially since i’m leaving for NEW YORK CITTTT-AAAYYY the next day, but hey, even gretzsky said “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take.” so yes,  i’ll be there early in the morning, freezing my vocal chords in the unseasonable march-sadness weather, but imma be there nonetheless.
wish me luck! (don’t say macbeth)

RIP 





your heroine went to three amazing press screenings last week for upcoming films. these are serious givin’r movies, mark my words. i was really impressed, because lately the only things i’ve been invited to are bullshit hollywood wank-fests.

the first was west is west, which is the long-awaited sequel to brit classic east is east.

then there was the LUMINOUS certified copy, which earned juliette binoche (love her) a best actress award at Cannes

finally it was family-friendly heartwarming drama win win starring montreal-hard-on-boy paul giamatti

you will have a hard time finding flaws with these three vastly differing but immensely rich films. go see them when they open. YOU’RE WELCOME.
also, another thing imma remain tight-lipped about (but am very optimistic about my chances) is an opportunity that has just arisen for me to stay in the south of france this upcoming fall at a chateau and blog for them with some funding. if i can organize inexpensive enough travel there (and secure the grant-attached writing gig i’m applying for in conjunction with this opportunity), this could really be something.
wish me luck! (don’t say tartuffe)
et c’est parti. 
on y va à new york 
à la prochaine, toronto!

i’m a bad babysitter, got my boyfriend in your shower. ooh! i’m making six bucks an hour!

i have been working on so many freelance writing assignments lately. so much so that my Online Writing Portfolio required a massive overhaul!

i think my fingers have lost all feeling. pencils worn down to angry inches. laptop keyboard letters rubbed off in frenzied fury. deadlines deadlines deadlines! the life of a writer is never easy but it can be exciting….exclamation point.

check out my film review of the latest adaptation of Jane Eyre, starring smoking hot Michael Fassbender and Jamie Bell. my two wet dreams packed into one cinematic nocturnal emission.

also check out my film review of When We Leave, a german-turkish film that stars former porn star Sibel Kekilli, of Head-On fame (gegen die wand!)

i also wrote a DVD review of Room In Rome . . . two lezzers + one boiled cucumber= bullshit drama. shame on you Julio Medem!

i’ve started freelancing for BlissTree, a health-related blog for women over 30. nothing cutesy and sparse use of exclamation points. i’m not 100% sure if this freelance gig is locked-down, i think there’s still some negotiations to be had, but they’ve published three of my articles already, so i’m hoping more assignments are around the corner….

 my first blog for them is Exercise in Bed: Sex is Good for You! WARNING: MAY CONTAIN A DILDO-BOMB AND A STRAP-ON ASIDE…..NSFW. or is it??? hmmmmm.
secondly, i wrote a blog called Is This An Eating Disorder? which explores how far women will take their portion control and meal plans in the quest for perfection….and on the flip side, how forgetting these rules can damage your health. if you’re skinny or if you’re fat (which applies to everyone, i think), please read and comment!
finally, this blog is a bit more of a personal essay, i wrote The Vegetarian High Protein Low Carb Experiment: A Cautionary Tale. it explores where vegetarians get their protein, and also how the low-carb thing is a bunch of shit.
i don’t just write, fyi…. 
i sing! i act! i kibosh everyone who dares step into my spotlight!
 i’m like lana turner, but with talent.
boo-yah.
case in point:
i’m in a staged reading of a musical called Alligator Tears, which is part of this year’s Paprika Fest. today’s performance at 1pm  is free, and on the 25th the performance at 7pm is only $10 (it’s a benefit for the fest) so if you miss todays, please come to the benefit. I play Jeanette the town gossip, and I sing A LOT in this and have a few solos, so come check me out. The show is at the Tarragon Theatre, and if you click on all of those fricken links I just embedded you’ll find all the info you need. Hope to see you at the theatre!

allegra and I, going all lezzer at #loserkaraoke on St Patrick’s Day. Mild concern? Humbug.

i love cracking masculine codes.

i’d like to hang out more” means “i want to have sex with you.”

come over and we’ll watch a DVD” means “we’re having sex.”

…and, of course…

i don’t have the time to give you the attention you deserve” means “a relationship with you? dream on.”

just call a spade a spade.


>i’m a bad babysitter, got my boyfriend in your shower. ooh! i’m making six bucks an hour!

>

i have been working on so many freelance writing assignments lately. so much so that my Online Writing Portfolio required a massive overhaul!

i think my fingers have lost all feeling. pencils worn down to angry inches. laptop keyboard letters rubbed off in frenzied fury. deadlines deadlines deadlines! the life of a writer is never easy but it can be exciting….exclamation point.

check out my film review of the latest adaptation of Jane Eyre, starring smoking hot Michael Fassbender and Jamie Bell. my two wet dreams packed into one cinematic nocturnal emission.

also check out my film review of When We Leave, a german-turkish film that stars former porn star Sibel Kekilli, of Head-On fame (gegen die wand!)

i also wrote a DVD review of Room In Rome . . . two lezzers + one boiled cucumber= bullshit drama. shame on you Julio Medem!

i’ve started freelancing for BlissTree, a health-related blog for women over 30. nothing cutesy and sparse use of exclamation points. i’m not 100% sure if this freelance gig is locked-down, i think there’s still some negotiations to be had, but they’ve published three of my articles already, so i’m hoping more assignments are around the corner….

 my first blog for them is Exercise in Bed: Sex is Good for You! WARNING: MAY CONTAIN A DILDO-BOMB AND A STRAP-ON ASIDE…..NSFW. or is it??? hmmmmm.
secondly, i wrote a blog called Is This An Eating Disorder? which explores how far women will take their portion control and meal plans in the quest for perfection….and on the flip side, how forgetting these rules can damage your health. if you’re skinny or if you’re fat (which applies to everyone, i think), please read and comment!
finally, this blog is a bit more of a personal essay, i wrote The Vegetarian High Protein Low Carb Experiment: A Cautionary Tale. it explores where vegetarians get their protein, and also how the low-carb thing is a bunch of shit.
i don’t just write, fyi…. 
i sing! i act! i kibosh everyone who dares step into my spotlight!
 i’m like lana turner, but with talent.
boo-yah.
case in point:
i’m in a staged reading of a musical called Alligator Tears, which is part of this year’s Paprika Fest. today’s performance at 1pm  is free, and on the 25th the performance at 7pm is only $10 (it’s a benefit for the fest) so if you miss todays, please come to the benefit. I play Jeanette the town gossip, and I sing A LOT in this and have a few solos, so come check me out. The show is at the Tarragon Theatre, and if you click on all of those fricken links I just embedded you’ll find all the info you need. Hope to see you at the theatre!

allegra and I, going all lezzer at #loserkaraoke on St Patrick’s Day. Mild concern? Humbug.

i love cracking masculine codes.

i’d like to hang out more” means “i want to have sex with you.”

come over and we’ll watch a DVD” means “we’re having sex.”

…and, of course…

i don’t have the time to give you the attention you deserve” means “a relationship with you? dream on.”

just call a spade a spade.


we can remember swimming in December, heading for the city lights in 1975

check out my film review of Alamar, a film about the bond between father and son, that blurs the line between documentary and fiction. but, as they say on reading rainbow, don’t take my word for it……

speaking of reading rainbow, levar burton wished me a happy birfday
i love that man THIS much. dude is totally cool. 

just found out i was quoted in THE LONDON TELEGRAPH back in january and didn’t know it. my film reviews have global reach, bitches. 
also, i was interviewed/quoted in a nathaniel g moore article published in Open Book Toronto which you can read here about the state of the short story versus the novel. i love how mr moore calls me a “cultural persona” and “lass about town” (hit the nail on the head, ‘natch). it’s interesting reading what other people in canada’s literary scene (aka “Can.Lit”…..aka “CLit”) have to say about it. it’s great that we’re getting a discussion going about this because too much snobbery exists in both veins and it’s good to get this out. especially as a writer. if you’re attempting either of these forms of literature, this is a must read.

back in january, i was an invited panelist at York U on the subject of Writing/Creative Writing/Publishing and how to make a career out of it. now I’ve been invited back by the university newspaper Excalibur, which i used to write for waaaay back in the day, to speak to journalism students and current Excalibur writers on how to make a career out of journalism. if you’re a York U student interested in a career in journalism and want to hear how i became the UTTER SUCCESS (tumbleweed) that i am today, come out on monday, march 7th at 4:30pm in room 420 of the Student Centre on campus, and watch me yap yap yap about myself. best pastime ever.

i’ve been cast in a musical theatre production called Alligator Tears which will have a couple performances at this year’s Paprika Festival at the Tarragon Theatre. it won’t be a polished performance, we’ll all probably have script-in-hand, but it’s a hella-funny musical about rural Ontario in the 1950s. the musical is by Britta Johnson. i play a town gossip.
how apropos.
details here:
Performances of Alligator Tears:

Saturday March 19 @ 1 PM
Friday March 25 @ 8 PM

Tickets
Tickets are on sale now through the Tarragon Theatre box office!
Tickets to the Paprika Festival are FREE! With one exception. The Friday night performance of Alligator Tears is doubling as a fundraising performance for the festival. This means ticket to this performance will be $10 each. More details about the evening will follow shortly!


Regardless of whether the tickets are free or $10, we suggest that you reserve ahead of time We absolutely had shows sell out last year so make sure you reserve your tickets in advance if you really want to see something. The Tarragon box office phone number is 416.531.1827 or you can also reserve them online through their website at www.tarragontheatre.com/tickets. There will be a limit on how many tickets one person can reserve to this year’s Festival. We are limiting reservations to four tickets per show per person.
SEE YOU AT THE PLAYHOUSE, you theatre-junkies!

i went to the press screening of Source Code earlier in the week, starring Jake Gyllenhaal, Vera Farmiga, Jeffrey Wright, and Russell Peters (somebody gonna get a-hurt real bad). it’s like speculative fiction meets Run Lola Run  meets Groundhog Day meets Ghost. lots of improbable technobabble, overwrought histrionics, some pretty cool CGI, and a message about enjoying the gift of life, or whatever. i was kinda torn on whether the performances were sufficiently satisfying, but really, the only person who consistently never disappoints is Jeffrey Wright. the man is a fireball (and surely has fire-balls in a non-STD fashion). the film opens April 1st, and there’s lots of hype surrounding it, so it will surely do well at the box office. it’s definitely an interesting idea with some cool action sequences, but there’s a repetitiveness of it that isn’t compelling enough to keep predictability at bay. i’ve said too much already.

watch the trailer here:

a warning about Christine Estima:

i do not forgive the follies and vices of others, nor their offences against me. my good opinion, once lost, is lost forever.

 i have neither the time nor the inclination to indulge your need for redemption. your selfish disdain for my feelings was colossal. there is no road home.

as you were.


>we can remember swimming in December, heading for the city lights in 1975

>

check out my film review of Alamar, a film about the bond between father and son, that blurs the line between documentary and fiction. but, as they say on reading rainbow, don’t take my word for it……

speaking of reading rainbow, levar burton wished me a happy birfday
i love that man THIS much. dude is totally cool. 

just found out i was quoted in THE LONDON TELEGRAPH back in january and didn’t know it. my film reviews have global reach, bitches. 
also, i was interviewed/quoted in a nathaniel g moore article published in Open Book Toronto which you can read here about the state of the short story versus the novel. i love how mr moore calls me a “cultural persona” and “lass about town” (hit the nail on the head, ‘natch). it’s interesting reading what other people in canada’s literary scene (aka “Can.Lit”…..aka “CLit”) have to say about it. it’s great that we’re getting a discussion going about this because too much snobbery exists in both veins and it’s good to get this out. especially as a writer. if you’re attempting either of these forms of literature, this is a must read.

back in january, i was an invited panelist at York U on the subject of Writing/Creative Writing/Publishing and how to make a career out of it. now I’ve been invited back by the university newspaper Excalibur, which i used to write for waaaay back in the day, to speak to journalism students and current Excalibur writers on how to make a career out of journalism. if you’re a York U student interested in a career in journalism and want to hear how i became the UTTER SUCCESS (tumbleweed) that i am today, come out on monday, march 7th at 4:30pm in room 420 of the Student Centre on campus, and watch me yap yap yap about myself. best pastime ever.

i’ve been cast in a musical theatre production called Alligator Tears which will have a couple performances at this year’s Paprika Festival at the Tarragon Theatre. it won’t be a polished performance, we’ll all probably have script-in-hand, but it’s a hella-funny musical about rural Ontario in the 1950s. the musical is by Britta Johnson. i play a town gossip.
how apropos.
details here:
Performances of Alligator Tears:

Saturday March 19 @ 1 PM
Friday March 25 @ 8 PM

Tickets
Tickets are on sale now through the Tarragon Theatre box office!
Tickets to the Paprika Festival are FREE! With one exception. The Friday night performance of Alligator Tears is doubling as a fundraising performance for the festival. This means ticket to this performance will be $10 each. More details about the evening will follow shortly!


Regardless of whether the tickets are free or $10, we suggest that you reserve ahead of time We absolutely had shows sell out last year so make sure you reserve your tickets in advance if you really want to see something. The Tarragon box office phone number is 416.531.1827 or you can also reserve them online through their website at www.tarragontheatre.com/tickets. There will be a limit on how many tickets one person can reserve to this year’s Festival. We are limiting reservations to four tickets per show per person.
SEE YOU AT THE PLAYHOUSE, you theatre-junkies!

i went to the press screening of Source Code earlier in the week, starring Jake Gyllenhaal, Vera Farmiga, Jeffrey Wright, and Russell Peters (somebody gonna get a-hurt real bad). it’s like speculative fiction meets Run Lola Run  meets Groundhog Day meets Ghost. lots of improbable technobabble, overwrought histrionics, some pretty cool CGI, and a message about enjoying the gift of life, or whatever. i was kinda torn on whether the performances were sufficiently satisfying, but really, the only person who consistently never disappoints is Jeffrey Wright. the man is a fireball (and surely has fire-balls in a non-STD fashion). the film opens April 1st, and there’s lots of hype surrounding it, so it will surely do well at the box office. it’s definitely an interesting idea with some cool action sequences, but there’s a repetitiveness of it that isn’t compelling enough to keep predictability at bay. i’ve said too much already.

watch the trailer here:

a warning about Christine Estima:

i do not forgive the follies and vices of others, nor their offences against me. my good opinion, once lost, is lost forever.

 i have neither the time nor the inclination to indulge your need for redemption. your selfish disdain for my feelings was colossal. there is no road home.

as you were.


>tits out, pants down, overnight to london

>

i’m back, munchkins.

incredible experience.

and i legally can’t talk about it until it airs at some yet-to-be-determined date in the future (probably a few months). so don’t ask.

until that day dawns, i’ll just say that this was a great way to start off the new year, i’ve met some incredible people, had a truly emotional experience, learned so much about myself, and somehow came out shit-kicking on the other end. i hope to keep up the momentum this experience has built in my life, to dove-tail off whatever it brings, and to continue to live life like there’s a riot in my heart.

i’ve only been back for a few hours though, and people keep asking me about money. did you earn? did you win?

again, i can’t talk about that either. but that also seemed to be a recurrent theme of this experience.

so i’ll just say this:

money does not determine what you’re worth as a person. money only provides you with expensive enough clothes to cover up the fact that you’re in love with a lie.

and that’s probably the biggest lesson this project has taught me.

unless i’m needed for anything related to this show for the next few months until it airs, i think i’m going to disappear again for a while. eastern europe and then australia. i’ll let you know which part of the world pulls me in….

okay, i’ve been traveling for over 24 hours and my luggage is still hanging out in paris somewhere. more updates later.

p.s. I’M TANNED. YOU WILL BE JEALOUS.

p.p.s. happy valentines day bitches!


>ok, last quickie update, i swear…

>i just got a phone call from the people at Big Brother.

they wanted me to come in for a secret audition for the show to go on this summer. the guy on the phone really seemed adamant that i audition. but i’ll be filming this other show when the audition was scheduled for. so i can’t.

now i’m wondering….and second guessing….which show would i prefer to be on?

the one i’m one = progressive social experiment.
big brother = massive fame.
the one i’m one = being able to maintain my sense of self
big brother= ridiculous media attention, speculation, audience-approval, invasion of privacy, constantly in front of cameras 24/7 for 3 months, not being able to take a dump without it going out on the AP wire
the one i’m on= adhering to my feminist and social-revolutionary ideas
big brother=money money money money

fuck.

i know i made the right choice.

but still.

oh well, big brother will be on for years to come. i’ll do it another time. NEXT!

oh i forgot to mention: yesterday was the one year anniversary since i moved to london. all the canadian girls who came to london with me on this programme have since thrown in the towel and gone back home. i’ve fucking survived it, and am still ready for more.

yay me.

okay, for reals ya’ll.
i’m out of here, i swear.

love youuuuuuuuuuu


>quickie update

>

you wouldn’t believe all the things i’ve had to get done in this short period of time!

-signed contract after contract after contract, filled out countless forms
-endless talks and meetings with producers
-been fitted for certain costumes and outfits
-had a police background check done
-filled out psych tests and been interviewed by a psychologist
-been advised on the possible negative outcomes in relation to the media from appearing on a reality tv show
-provided references after references
-provided letters from previous employers confirming they know me
-informed my current boss who took the new quite jovially & will hold my position for me until i get back
-provided documentation proving i am who i say i am
-gotten immunized for a shitload of diseases (hepatitis A, typhoid, etc)
-started taking malaria pills
-paid my rent all in advance
-gone shopping for some exotic clothes to wear on the shoot
-haven’t even begun to pack

maybe it’s best that i was cast last…that i haven’t had much time to ruminate on what i’m about to undertake. i haven’t had the time to get excited or nervous. my plate is too full.

this will probably be my last blog update for a while. for 3 weeks to be exact. expect me back in the UK sometime around Feb.13th.

if you get restless for more chrissy, there’s always my archives, i guess….

anyway, they’re putting me up in a hotel near the airport the night before we fly out. a hotel room all to myself….and i need a good, healthy, boink-fest…any volunteers?

xxxxxxxxxx
ciao


>untitled

>

i just had a meeting with the producers.

i got cast in the tv show.

i fly out to film on location in about a week.

i’ll be gone for 3 weeks.

no email, no phone calls, no facebook…and no blogging.

i’m nervous.

and the one person i wanted to share my excitment with the most… didn’t care. at all. no tv show can mend my heart.

thanks for all the love and support throughout the years guys. i love you all so much. a million kisses.

see ya.


>sweetheart, bitterheart, now i can’t tell you apart; cosy and cold, put the horse before the cart

>
remember last month when i mentioned a tv network here in london was interested in casting me in one of their shows

i thought i didn’t get it because i didn’t hear back from them. oh well. i did my best. life goes on. NEXT!

got a phone call from them yesterday afternoon.

their executive producers wanted to meet with me.

rushed to their studios after work . . . this time the interview wasn’t filmed, all very relaxed, just a chat about the show and a bit more about myself . . .

so here’s the deal – the producers and the production company love me . . . but the final say goes to the big-wig top execs at the major tv network that will air the show. and their criteria for choosing the cast depends, quite frankly, on their mood at any given moment. they may not want to choose me for several reasons – because i’m canadian and they want an all-british cast . . . because i may have a look/appearance/features/ethnic-origin similar to someone else they’re casting in the show and they don’t want to double-up . . . or simply because they don’t like me.

the meeting was really positive and the producers have all expressed a desire to work with me. they say i’m one of the strongest candidates they’ve seen, and they think i would stand out and really have an impact on the show. they’ll make a case for me to the network and assured me that even if the network decides not to go with me, they still produce many other shows and will definitely keep me in mind for other projects. they’ve all been so great and warm, and this has been a fun experience:)

i can’t divulge what the nature of the show is or even what network it will be airing on. i have signed a confidentiality agreement. they even have to do a police background check on me and i have to be assessed by their psychologist! fun!

i’m supposed to find out in about 1-2 weeks what the network has come back with. so once i know, you’ll know…

but if i do get it: filming takes place on the other side of the planet, and i’ll hafta disappear for about a month. no phone, no internet, probably have to quit my new job.

i love the idea of disappearing.

i want to be your ghost.

keep your fingers crossed for me.


>awake, but still i’m dreaming and never waking up

>countdown to london-proper: T minus 3 days

last night was one of those moments that will live on forever as one of the best experiences of my life. we were ready for the worst. we knew the show itself was good, but we were worried no one would actually show. but they came (if you build it…..).

friends. coworkers. old classmates. professors. former roommates. even some of you random blog readers. just those who’d heard about it. and the place radiated with the energy of a full house.

layne got up on stage before the show began to say a few words. “few” is not an accurate description of the heartfelt address he gave. he spoke about how we first met, how some great playwrights have come out of the passe muraille box office, and how doing this workshop has made his 2007 so far the best year. then, with shakey knees and adrenaline propelling me somewhere familiar and strange, brendon and i emerged out the shadows of the theatre and filled the lights.

glancing into the audience i saw faces i once knew – victoria p, my childhood best friend whom i used to take baths with! belarie z, my professor and supervisor for my masters. tammy j, my old roommate. sue, paula and layne like a cheering squad. anya, jesse, richard, caitlin, optimuscrime toronto, ann, vicki, and jess occupying the corners of the theatre. then random strangers, mouths closed, ears open.

the first scene shocked us. brendon and i are just going through what we think is a dull scene, and the audience is cackling and laughing at the jokes and spots we’d forgotten were funny. it was really hard to keep a straight face when the audience surprises you with the roars. actually, as the scenes progressed and the audience grew vociferous with debilitating laughter, i had to either turn my face away from the audience or try to cover my face because their laughter infected me. like a pathogen.

and i know exactly whose laugh did me in too. sue and layne, damn you. their laughs just threw me for a loop.

it’s been so long since one of my plays was staged, and even longer since i’ve been on stage. it felt like coming home, like resting where my head and gut and heart belong. as the lights dimmed and the applause began, to roars, the cheers, the ovations, i was taken aback. never knew this feeling. at least, not for a long time. in the past, written so many shitty plays, had performed like paint-drying, finally finding a winner.

people flooded the greenroom, praise and hugs. shocked by the response, i’d written and performed something that resonated. they said it was the right blend of funny and touching, sweet and cheeky, smart and cocky. i wish i was making this stuff up. i wish i had to lie to make me look good. i wish this was ego talking. but it wasn’t from my lips, but theirs. i just revelled in it.

even more flooded the party afterward. a rush of people to my side. all i heard was ‘dynamic’ and ‘compelling’ and ‘beautiful’ and ‘lyrical’ and ‘poetic’ and ‘funny.’ is this the best moment, i think so.

my friends, oddly enough, have always been my toughest critics, but the fact that they were uproarious with their praise made me soar. i think only a few people’s opinions really mattered to me – belarie, because she’s like a second mother to me, sue & paula, cuz they know bad and good theatre when they see it, layne (of course), and optimuscrime toronto’s because she’s seen my writing evolve since adolescence and knows what this means to me (read her lovely shout-out to me on her page, i’m sitting in tears reading it.)

the rest was the cherry. the icing. the rainbow. the pot of gold. i circulatd the party like a butterfuly, not believing how allof this was really for me. i could see layne talking to all these people, telling them how much he believes in me. he’s probably the best friend i’ve ever had.

inexplicably, however, he disappeared into the night without saying goodbye. not to me. not to anyone. perplexed and worried, because that’s not like him at all. i’m leaving in 3 days, i probably won’t see him again. why would he leave? i never got my hug. i never got to say goodbye.

midnight rolled around and the party thinned to just me, brendon, paula, tara, and kaumil. blasting my party cd, paula suggested, as my last act as a TPM stagger, i get up on the mainstage and dance. i ran like a riot, hit the centre stage, and spun like my feet were on acid. jumping and gyrating, singing and acting ridiculous, they all joined me, until i finally collapsed on the stage floor, and stared up into the lighting grid. i looked around my theatre, in my last moments there, and wanted to sleep.

finally, it was time to go home. i was the last to leave like i’d planned. standing on the street, waving goodbye to everyone, begging it not to end.

called a cab.

and as i sped through the city, in the velvet black of night, rain pelting the windshield, i rose upon the gardiner expressway which overlooks the cityscape. beautiful, majestic. my cn tower. my skyscrapers. my parks. my waterfront. my city.

i put my head back on the leather seat, closed my eyes.

the last line of the play hit me.

and you wonder what to do next.


some photos from the party last night, taken by jess:


ann has nicer tatas than me.


jess and i kinda kept our distance in this shot.


so i slammed my boobies into hers for the next.


the crew – ann, vicki, moi, and jess.


sonja . . . you’re perpetually late to everything, but i wuv u.


ann, sophia, moi, vicki


right before we snapped this, jesse said, “uh, i don’t smile in photos.”
it’s the supermodel in him.


tammy jane clouston!! TAMMY JANE! CSI!!! CSI!!!!


we’re so icky sweet, we’ll give you a toothache.

oddly enough, that morning, jess asked me to be her burn victim.


before, with puffy early morning face.


half-way through the scalding pain.


and after, with a single tear trickling down my mangled face.


yet somehow i am defiant.


sad but defiant.


amazing how the burns healed in just a couple hours, eh?

paula and i are laughing at the expense of emo kids and goths.

“i wish my grass was emo so it would cut itself.”

“i’m so goth i pee darkness.”

“i’m so goth i poo melancholy.”

aren’t we clever?

she took a video with her camera last night of me dancing on the stage to the spice girls. i smell an e! true hollywood story moment.


>courage my word, it didn’t come, it doesn’t matter; courage, couldn’t come at a worse time

>here are two more photos from new years, taken by luis:

i’m awesome.

countdown to london-proper: T minus 7 days.

The Spadina Monologues reminder!

see a workshop performance of the play and attend my going-away party afterward! ALL FREE (except for the booze, of course)

Start Time: Thursday, January 11, 2007 at 8:00pm. THIS THURSDAY!

Location: Theatre Passe Muraille, 16 Ryerson Avenue, Toronto, Ontario (one block east of Bathurst & one block north of Queen West).

Tickets: free! FREE, I TELLS YA!

The workshop will be performed by MOI and Brendon Smith, directed by Layne Coleman, and stage managed by Tara Carman (dramaturgy by Bea Pizano).

rehearsals are running better than expected. after only 5 days, we’ve memorized the entire script and have all our blocking down. the show runs about 45-50 minutes, so it’s short n’ sweet, but the party afterward will run as long as there’s people feelin’ the need for sweet sweet liquor.

rehearsals have not been without hiccups.

i threw a hissy fit the other day. when i act and i have to bring all my vulnerable emotions to the surface, i can become madame primadonna. i ran into the green room for a stupid sob-fest.to give you an idea/point of reference, it was something like this:

i’m still awesome, dammit.

less grover, more teabag.


>sitting by the judas mantel, underneath, where i can’t tell; found the places i’m destroying, only hoped you’d be there still

>in rehearsals for The Spadina Monologues, building a scene like a tapestry, discovering i’m not as good an actress as i used to be.

not like riding a bike, as it were.

in theatre school, was constantly told i played attitude instead of emotion. falling back on old crutches. it’s easier to put up a front than to be vulnerable. working hard at breaking down the fail-safe.

coughing up phlegm translates into a sexy stage voice.

a week before heading off to europe this past summer, i spent an evening at the hospital. vomiting, purging, blacking out, delusional, cold sweats.

now, a week before flying to london, i’m sucking back the bradosol like a blood-tick.


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