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>paris and london, baby you can keep, baby you can keep, baby you can keep

>two nights ago i lay in my bunk, firecrackering. smoke-off, noises-on, ready to dish out the shit-kickings.

that day started with a delightful interview at a theatre, a job i would kill for. short n’ sweet preliminary interview, fingers crossed for a call-back.

staring at the black stage, posters of proof and oleanna, wondering if i’m laying on my drama-luva attitude on too thick or not thick enough.

applying at theatres, not an audition, not a submission, but i feel like i should have a monologue prepared.

then the flat viewing took all the hot-aired confidence out of me. one guy left me standing in the cold and never showed, and i felt lost in a city of burned-down houses.

next place was ideal. bayswater area like something out dickens. would have slaughtered for it, and was text-messaged a denial.

i will never understand text messages. i mean, YOU’RE HOLDING A PHONE IN YOUR HANDS. use your voice, pussy.

lay in bed cursing myself and all the mistakes i made in flat-hunting. tossing and turning, stressed and nursing a pounding headache.

wake up the next morning, and i found a flat.

huge room, beautiful kitchen, amazing view, and my roommate is a theatre fag. does it get ANY BETTER than that?

i move in tomorrow morning.

sweating it out one night to succeed in the morning.

they said the first two weeks would be the hardest, and that i’d be contemplating whether i should go home. but the point is that you struggle through it, and come out clean on the other side. the point is that it’s a bitch, and i enjoy the bitch-aspect.

i’m a bitch in training.

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2 responses

  1. J. Kelly

    Here’s the story with text messaging: It’s cheaper. On my pay-as-you-go cell, it cost 35p a minute to call another network, but 10p to send a text message.
    I hate it too, but you’ll adapt.

    January 24, 2007 at 9:03 PM

  2. >Here’s the story with text messaging: It’s cheaper. On my pay-as-you-go cell, it cost 35p a minute to call another network, but 10p to send a text message. I hate it too, but you’ll adapt.

    January 24, 2007 at 9:03 PM

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